still searching........siempre

for a while, all seemed too gd to be true.

is it the caffeine...damn, i shld jz keep a caffeine diary...
i get depressed with too much caffeine. i oso get
depressed when i drink too much.

for now, i stopped drinking as much as i did last yr.

i feel damned frustrated at wk. no prospects. lower
pay than what i had been getting and getting the same
pay as someone jnr n incompetent...this is a fantastic
morale buster!

i want a gd job title to get me higher up....but do i
really want a career, can i take it or do i just want
a job.

i hate the stresses of this job.

morale is low. if not for my husband, i wld throw in
the towel w/o batting an eyelid.

i so much wanted to go for the yoga retreat. too bad
it didnt materialize.

why am i always searching ....
searching for that smth....
i know there is a smth but
i jz dont know wat it is.