domingo, octubre 02, 2005

In search for a job again

I finished sch in Dec 94
below are a list of my jobs

1.Feb-Apr 95
In an accounting firm
Left cz i hated my female boss. Helluva irritating

2.Oct95-Jan96
Small trading firm
Left cz i was fated to meet another psycho female boss who was a spinster and 24yrs older than me and just couldn't stand me being married and she being left on the shelf

3.Mar-Oct96
Mid-range retail sales
Left for greener pastures in high fashion

4.Oct96-May98
High fashion
Left cz again my female Italian boss started to treat me worse and worse each day

5.Nov98-Nov99
Mfg and retailing firm
Left cz i dont like the way my female boss manages the biz and they way she exploits!

6.Nov99-Aug00
Telco
Left cz I wanted to do part-time distance learning and the shift was not conducive and internal tfrs are not allowed until one has been in the post for at least 2yrs!! (on my last day, the director came to see me but too late, i already signed my letter with the other company)

7.Aug00-Jul01
.com
Bubble burst and my ricebowl went along with it.How i got this job was from my ex boss at the Telco.

8.Aug01-May02
Real estate
Left cz i completed my degree. No chances of tfr or advancments.

9.Jun-Oct02
Retail
Left cz co. culture sucked, it exploited us and made us wear uncomfortable shoes for 12 hrs!
----was sadly, v v jobless and disillusioned.disillusioned that my degree became a bane, post 911

10.May03-Apr04 (finally found a job after like half a yr being unemployed, my longest!!)
IT company
Left cz contract ended

11.May-Nov04
Consulting Firm
Left cz wasnt suitable for the job.

12.Mar till now
Bank
??Would be leaving as I aint confirmed on the job.
???Wont leave if redeployment application succeeds.
????Would leave immediately if the other company gives better $$

70's kids

People born in the 70's, like myself, seem to be stuck at crossroads.

The decision of carrying on in a mundane job and get more and more jaded or cut the losses and get da hell outta it and doing something meaningful is a daunting decision? Which path to choose?
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But then again, for me, its getting tougher. I really dont know which road to take and the traffic lights are turning green. I have to move or else i will be trampled over. I am trampled all over and still am being trampled. I dont know where to move and the moving traffic is getting faster and faster. I cannot catch up. I feel like i m sinking. Missing one junction, not crossing a road, leads to downfall. Its not even stagnation. I have moved, but in the wrong direction. I have been moving backwards cz that's the flow of the traffic. I am on the wrong side of the road. I am being dragged down.
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I have just picked myself up and am gearing myself to brave through the crowded roads. Its not impossible. It takes a lot "do"ing and not so much of thinking. Getting up and doing rather sitting around thinking but doing nothing. Its an uphill task as i have been dragged down to the valleys. It takes lotsa grit and courage to take the 1st step by standing up, feeling my feet on the ground from such a long hiatus, it was unnerving and very unsettling. I treaded carefully with baby steps, but many a times, the traffic zoomed passed me causing me to freeze and turn back. Back to doom.
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Where am i nw?
I dont konw.